change, it's painful

A fun loving girl

with lots of dreams
but a sudden change
which she couldn't adapt
made her
A failure

A failure, whose
parents hesitated to
accept it in front of others
trying to cover up
the things

In the process of making
them happy
she was stuck in a loop
which she couldn't find
An exit

Couldn't express her anger
Couldn't argue
Couldn't fight back
Suppressed everything
in her heart

Anger expressed
by way of tears
Sadness by way
of smile
Grief by way
of writing diary

Kept on struggling
to find one way or
the other

But only left one option
to adapt to
the change

Change, it's painful
But being stuck is
more painful
she realised

Trying to adapt the change
She started hating everything
everything around her
everything including her

Where she became
her own enemy
Trying to hurt herself

Not others but she
couldn't forgive herself
for all that
what she's doing

Friends motivates
Family encourages

But she wishes to erase the past
The part from where
she need to adapt to the change
from where a fun loving girl
become a fun topic

©Sushritha Danturi